Sábado, 23 de Fevereiro de 2013

you're like a sister to me. I was pleased I finally had someone to talk about everything, someone who would be there for me. Someone I could trust. And that word, trust, is like paper, you know? Once it is crumbled it is never perfect again. And you failed in the trust I put you. It could had turn to a lot worst than this you know? No, why I keep asking "you know"? of course you don't. You don't get it what it is to feel lost and alone all the fucking time. You don't know half I've been through. You don't know how sensible I am, and what I can say without meaning it. You don't know me at all. I thought you knew, but you don't. And now here I am. I miss you, I really do. You were that person who cheered me up. I could be crying but you could just say: I'm so sexy, and i would laugh my butt off. And you know what is the feeling to lose someone? I have it. Because I'm stupid and I do everything to keep letting you go. I say those words in the moment that fuck up everything. And you were just trying to help. And I'm sorry I'm a bad friend, and I'm sorry I'm the most retarded kid on earth. I don't know what I had in my mind. I'm not mad at you, I can't be. Tho, the trust was torned yesterday. I feel like if I knew some "bomb" right now I would feel in the need to go tell you. I just can't hide anything from you. And that's why you are my panthera. 
I love you x 

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